Deleted scenes from 'Fascination' featuring Adam Garcia, henceforth referred to as "he of the fabulous ass".

Good Charlotte's video for "Keep Your Hands Off My Girl"

Let the record play,
Let the record play,
Let the record play.

The way that you dance,
The way that you move,
The way that you stare at me across the room,
You carry Dior bags,
And you got your Chanel,
You wear Louis Vuitton, HG, and YSL,
Now I got what you need,
I got DCMA
I got brass knuckles hanging,
From my neck in my chain,
I got a model 26,
But she stays in her place,
I got a curve shirt neatly,
Tucked inside in my waist.

sometimes i feel like i am just a well-dressed caboose on a train full of leaders.

"As far as socially redeeming value, I hope I don't have any.
Sometimes I wish I was a woman, just so that I could get an abortion.
If you can make someone laugh who's dead set against you,
that's the first step to winning them over to your side."

~filmaker John Waters

Lily Allen - Littlest Things

Flawless Lily from the U.K. Very 30's Hitchcock. Great melody, voice, piano, and overall execution.

"People break down into two groups when they experience something lucky. Group number one sees it as more than luck, more than coincidence. They see it as a sign, evidence, that there is someone up there, watching out for them. Group number two sees it as just pure luck. Just a happy turn of chance. I'm sure the people in Group number two are looking at those fourteen lights in very suspicious way. For them, the situation isn't fifty-fifty. Could be bad, could be good. But deep down, they feel that whatever happens, they're on their own. And that fills them with fear."

From Signs, M. Night Shyamalan

[figure text: first fate, then luck]

wake up, baby. virtual ipod player.

wishes wanderlust wonderful whatever whenever
i've made the same wish on the same star every week since i've been 12
.

"Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore."

We like familiarity don’t we? People, places and things that we have knowledge of or have encountered or seen bring us some form of comfort, safety, security and an element of control. I think of how many folks stay stuck in relationships, jobs, geographically etc. simply because they are familiar with their surroundings. For some it means giving up control of their life and to trust in fate. Sometimes the unfamiliar is just so cold, aloof, unfriendly, and leaves that empty homesick feeling in the pit of our stomach.

-French writer Andre Gide

"Wow, you're really nice. I thought you were such a bitch."
Conclusion: smile more.

"Has anyone ever told you you look like Jodie Foster??"
Conclusion: kill. and kill again.

"What about my brain? What about my heart? What about my kidneys and my gallbladder?"
– Scarlett Johansson, voted Esquire's Sexiest Woman Alive, on her other attributes

At any given moment, the brain has 14 billion neurons firing at a speed of 450 miles per hour. We don’t have control over most of them. When we get a chill...goose bumps. When we get excited...adrenaline. The body naturally follows it’s impulses, which I think is part of what makes it so hard for us to control ours. Of course, sometimes we have impulses we would rather not control, that we later wish we had.

Parkour as featured in the "JUMP" video:

Parkour (IPA: [paʁ.'kuʁ], often abbreviated PK) is a physical discipline of French origin in which the participant — called a traceur (/tʁa.'sœʁ/) — attempts to pass obstacles in the fastest and most direct manner possible, using skills such as jumping, vaulting and climbing, or the more specific parkour moves. The obstacles can be anything in the environment, so parkour is often practiced in urban areas because of many suitable public structures, such as buildings, rails, and walls.

Madonna - Jump (preview)

There’s only so much you can learn in one place
The more that I wait, the more time that I waste

I haven’t got much time to waste, it’s time to make my way
I’m not afraid of what I’ll face, but I’m afraid to stay
I’m going down my own road and I can make it alone
I'll work and I'll fight, Till I find a place of my own

Are you ready to jump?
Get ready to jump
Don’t ever look back, oh baby,
Yes, I’m ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to jump

today i hate complainers, the idea of falling, green foods, silence, and the color orange when not used appropriately.

How to Act Crazy

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You never know what situation might call for you to act completely wild. Maybe you need a day off, or maybe your relationship is bad and you need an out. Whether you're acting for stage or film, or just acting for the effect, here's how to pull off looking crazy without actually going nuts.

Steps

Always reply, no matter what you have just done, that you are "okay" or "fine." Repeating this over and over at various volumes of voice can really enhance your effect. Never say "I feel crazy." That is a dead giveaway.

Be subtle. Don't overdo it. Instead of screaming swear words at people and claiming to be "seeing" things, maybe talk in a low whisper and look at "someone" next to you who isn't there. Imagine that the person is 2 feet tall and blue with green polka dots--but never reveal that.

Pick a theme. If you are all over the place, anyone with a minimum amount of education will be able to discern that you are acting out too many diagnosable maladies, outing you instantly. Pick one central theme and stick with it - people are after you or talking about you, or you are capable of some superhuman ability (e.g. hearing thoughts, seeing pictures in dogs' minds, reading the future using alphabet soup). Keep it consistent and again, subtle. Don't go overboard or be comedic.

Don't appear harmful. This is important. Don't threaten yourself, nor anyone else. Should superhuman ability be part of your "psychosis," make it be super speed or smell; flying will only make people think you're a jumper. Anything you do that violates this rule can get you locked up; you don't want that--it's a bad way to spend your free time.

Avoid using any psychological terms. Don't say words like psychosis or delusion because - let's face it - if you have a clear understanding of those afflictions - you're probably not afflicted by them. Although, some mentally ill individuals may know what these terms are, they are usually are in treatment and on medication, therefore, stable, which is something you want to avoid when acting crazy.

Wait for the desired effect. Don't make it apparent that you want to go home or need something for what is going on with you. If you are doing a good job, what you want will be suggested in due time. You will know this is happening when someone says "Do you need to lie down?" or "Maybe you should head home for the day."

Practice. You'll feel silly, but crazy practice does make crazy perfect. You can do it in a few ways, at home in front of the mirror, or out in untested public - just make sure it's not the environment you plan on being 'crazy' in when you go to do it for real.

At home, find an area of your body that you have never had to itch. Now, scratch it. Now, look off and upwards in a random direction and scratch that part of your body like a flea was biting it. Now stop suddenly and remain motionless.
Next, practice looking at objects nearby like they had said something either a) evil about your mother, or b) terrifying. When you look at the object, cast your glance at it like you were looking directly, but actually look at something 5 or 6 feet behind it. Do this several times.

Be creative and research. A good "crazy" has many aspects to it, and when they come to you at random and in high frequency, you will find yourself able to fit the role of insane quickly and comfortably. Plenty of TV shows and movies are great resources to get new ideas from.

Use caution. When the time comes to be serious, do it. What you do want is the ability to "act crazy." What you don't want is to actually be crazy. And just in case the situation doesn't go as you expected, you want to still be able to get it together and reassure someone that you were just fooling around. See the Warnings below.

Know when to use your new found power. Someone asking for your wallet? Not a bad time to mumble under your breath about drinking the urine with just a little blood mixed in. A cop asking for your license? Give him your license and keep crazy under wraps.

" They say the #1 killer of old people is retirement. People got'em a job to do, they tend to live a little longer so they can do it." -Kill Bill
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My 27th has arrived. I am not the person I thought I'd be. In some ways I am more, in others I am less, but either way I am content.

"Running With Scissors" by Augusten Burroughs has been turned into a movie. Watch the Trailer here
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You Are A Martini

You are the kind of drinker who appreciates a nice hard drink.
And for you, only quality alcohol. You don't waste your time on the cheap stuff.
Obviously, you're usually found with a martini in your hand. But sometimes you mix it up with a gin and tonic.
And you'd never, ever consider one of those flavored martinis. They're hardly a drink! Take the quiz

these are the days i crave all year. window open, dusk, smell of someone's fireplace drifting in.
i smell rain coming leaves falling
the air is shifting, cooling towards another season.

Anticipation 'boosts bad memory'

Volunteers had their brains scanned

Anticipating a gruesome or traumatic event makes it more vivid and deeply imprinted in the memory, a study says.

Researchers found if people were aware something was going to happen, a key memory-forming part of the brain fired.

The University of Wisconsin-Madison said the findings may have implications in the treatment of conditions such as post-traumatic stress disorder.

The study, based on 36 people, is published in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences journal.

click to read the rest of the study done in our lab.

how to save a life

artist: The Fray
title: How To Save A Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Valeze - Search and Destroy

Iggy Pop's '70s hit classic punk song "Search and Destroy" got a facelift recently from Chick-fronted Brooklyn Electro-Rock band, Valeze.

In commendation of the day our country meant something.
when people focused on surviving and helping and healing
and crying never forgetting that they have seen the worst of humanity,
and the best of humanity.

Bob Dylan - When The Deal Goes Down

Simple and original, also starring Scarlett. Dylan tops the charts with #1 from Modern Times.

one of my first paintings. watercolor on white board, circa 1998

Well Played: Scarlett Johansson

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"Yesterday, we expressed displeasure for Scarlett Johansson's choice of activewear at the Venice Film Festival. So we were delighted to see that when she changed for the premiere of her film The Black Dahlia, she went with something we were far less likely to be found between the covers of Land's End.

sometimes i think i am an analyst because i would rather observe than participate with everyone in life.

We all go through life like bulls in a china shop. A chip here, a crack there. Doing damage to ourselves, to other people. The problem is trying to figure out how to control the damage we've done, or that's been done to us. Sometimes the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes we think we can fix the damage. And sometimes the damage is something we can't even see.

Hummingbirds
The swirl of silk
on bare legs the smell of grass
Leaves
Dark clouds freckled with light

Wet noses
Fuzzy blankets
Wind
Laughing
Fall

Hard Fi -

From the dead boring outer ring of London's suburbs comes Hard-Fi. They merge disco, punk and dub until they sound like the late seventies post-punk scene having a fist fight with itself.

i am sick sick sick sick
of being the prodigy child
the charming host
the laughing
talented musician
the brooding artist
i just want to stretch out
my fingers and toes
on the grass
feel hot sun
nap
think about nothing
and everything
or nothing

LOS ANGELES (Reuters) - Bob Dylan says the quality of modern recordings is "atrocious," and even the songs on his new album sounded much better in the studio than on disc.

"I don't know anybody who's made a record that sounds decent in the past 20 years, really," the 65-year-old rocker said in an interview with Rolling Stone magazine.

Dylan, who released eight studio albums in the past two decades, returns with his first recording in five years, "Modern Times," next Tuesday.

"You listen to these modern records, they're atrocious, they have sound all over them," he added. "There's no definition of nothing, no vocal, no nothing, just like ... static."

Dylan said he does his best to fight technology, but it's a losing battle.

"Even these songs probably sounded ten times better in the studio when we recorded 'em. CDs are small. There's no stature to it."

"Your worst enemy, he reflected, was your nervous system. At any moment, the tension inside you was liable to translate itself into some visible symptom."

-George Orwell, 1984

WHY FAT IS BACK IN HOLLYWOOD
"In an industry rife with painfully thin stick figures, women with some meat on their bones are—lucky for us—rising to the top. PLUS: A visual smorgasbord of the sexiest plate-scrapers ever." Original article in Men's Style Magazine

“The curve,” Mae West observed, “is more powerful than the sword.” Measuring 38-24-38, the five-foot-one sex goddess spoke from experience—lots of it. West’s bodacious successors—women like Catherine Zeta-Jones, Drew Barrymore, Rachel Weisz, and Kate Winslet, who hold fast to their cushioned curves even as their peers downsize more aggressively than General Motors—understand that maxim. Their faminista sisters do not. Now, the bigger-(relatively speaking)-is-better argument could easily be made with logic. But a growing faction of actresses who appear to have a healthy relationship with carbohydrates are making the point better than any polemicizing ever could.

Line Hollywood’s wispy players up next to the lush likes of Scarlett Johansson, Lost siren Evangeline Lilly, Liv Tyler, Big Love star Ginnifer Goodwin, and an increasingly curvy Mandy Moore. Who would you rather slow-dance with? Seriously, would you prefer to get a Grey’s Anatomy lesson from an hourglassed Katherine Heigl or a reedy Ellen Pompeo? Nicole Richie or Nicole Richie at 50 percent off? Madonna “Like a Virgin” or Madonna “Hung Up” on Yogilates? Here’s a one-woman argument for roundness: Gretchen Mol. After going virtually unnoticed in some 20 films, the cherubic starlet put on a few pounds, took off her clothes, and gave a breakout performance as the world’s most famous pinup in The Notorious Bettie Page.

“The pinups didn’t have ‘perfect’ bodies. They didn’t go to the gym. They did Jack LaLanne exercises, those lazy leg lifts,” says Mary Harron, the biopic’s cowriter and director. “It was a more forgiving era. I think constant dieting makes people crazy. It gives them this strained look.”

You see that look in the faces of formerly fleshy sexpots who have morphed into pinched, prematurely aged superwaifs. What do they do for fun? Food and sex are appetites inextricably linked in the human psyche. One could speculate that for those obsessed with not eating, even the boyfriend’s salami goes the way of the bread basket.

A certain young actress whose figure has been closely scrutinized by the tabloids recently came out in defense of padded bones. “You want to be called sexy, and you want to have tits and an ass,” she said. Perhaps those of her peers still busy whittling themselves down to a size zero should adopt that statement as a mantra.

“Curves are all good from where I stand,” says writer and director Neil LaBute, whose plays—The Shape of Things, Fat Pig—have occasionally been inspired by the subject of weight. “I’m working with Maura Tierney right now, and she’s a picture of what a great American girl looks like. It’s not even that she’s particularly curvy. But you get the sense she never spends time worrying about what anybody else thinks about her weight. She appears incredibly comfortable in her skin.” Which, as everyone knows, is sexy as hell.

“In Hollywood, there’s a domino effect of envy and competition among women,” says Adrienne Ressler, a body-image specialist with the Renfrew Center in Philadelphia who identifies the prevailing ethos as: The skinniest girl wins. And indeed, when so many actresses make millions, rake in designer clothes, and land modeling contracts, the thinnest of the thin always stand out from the pack. We just hope that the Goodwins, Moores, and Mols taking to the screen flip that paradigm on its head—and represent the shape of things to come.

Rose McGowan

Monica Bellucci

Katherine Heigl

Anita Ekberg (La Dolce Vita)

Elizabeth Taylor

If you want inside her world, boy
You'd better make her raspberry swirl

What faith are you?
Even if YOU don't know what faith you are, Belief-O-Matic™ knows.
Warning: Belief-O-Matic™ assumes no legal liability for the ultimate fate of your soul.
My results

HUMAN BEHAVIOR what is it exactly that makes us tick. Bjorks new album is a smash.

hot mind. hot body. the perfect man: criss angel

"Girls can do everything men can do....just backwards and in heels"
- Ginger Rogers

i am melancholy tonight. i miss something, but i don't know what it is. i am hungry, but there's nothing that i crave.

The night is covered with fireflies
buried in the humidity
like lightbulbs in a sauna,
threatening to burst.

I take my time with what I have,
I fly through minds,
I wear crazy things,
I am acting as multiple people do
on busses and trains
and in windows
when they don't know they're being watched.

I want to tear things.
Shirts.
Ties.
Boundary lines.
Muscles.
Push my body down the road
until my feet burn and my lungs ache.

Tomorrow is the day I change.
The day I give in to reality
The day I take your hands off my..
Common sense.
And take it back and use it.

For now I am lost on
I-90.
I am.
Dark and fast and under construction.

-Miss Zoe

contradictions i usually dont mind. there is no love without hate mystery without the known
heat without ice to create a balance is essential
contradictions i mind only when i get exactly

what i want
only to find out
that its nothing that i need.

Dr. Wilson: (over a microphone) House, this is God.

Dr. House: Look, I’m a little busy right now. Not supposed to talk during these things. Got time on Thursday?

Dr. Wilson: Let me check. Oh, I got a plague! How about Friday?

Dr. House: I’ll have to check with Cameron.

Dr. Wilson: Oh, that…she always wants to know why bad things happen. Like I’m going to come up with a new answer this time.

Dr. Cuddy: House!

Dr. House: Quick, God! Smite the evil witch!

-Skin Deep

'In all trust there is the possibility of betrayal.'

'Then it is better not to trust?'

'Without trust, there's no friendship, no closeness, none of the emotional bonds that make us who
we are.'

'And yet you put yourself at risk?'

'Every single time.'

VAST- Pretty When You Cry

Visual Auditory Sensory Theatre

I didn't mean to hurt you baby, but you're pretty when you cry

"Someone tipped the hourglass, replaced the sands with wine..."

Faces are deceiving.
She has an addictive smile, cupie doll cheeks and blue eyes that twinkle, yet the darkness beneath is sharp and hard. i am the alternative. She says i have cold beauty. Cat eyes and sharp jawline, a stare that goes through your chest. We both draw people in, but for the wrong reasons. I bring in men who think i am unattainable, but I want them to fill me, to transform me into warmth. She draws them as an outlet for the intensity that lies beneath.

I am always writing. My mouth is filled with words that fall out with every movement and every thought that only rarely get written down. Usually floating away and dissolving forever.

sonic booms over a maxfield parrish sky of pink
and blue.
glittering gold and dropping flares of blue, yellow, emerald
pink and white.
the lake reflecting every sparkle
in its ripples
and the scents of lilac
jasmine
maybe peony
filtering down through the canopy of trees and branches
and across the kids with their sparklers
screaming in the distance
down through the folds of my skirt
to my toes
buried in the dark
wet sand of the lake.

this is a one time post featuring amazing tributes from my talented friends whom have known me way too long. xoxo

From Chip click to hear song

From Danny
Was this the face that launched a
thousand ships? Only if this was the
body that rocked the party. Debbie--
charmed chameleon of paralyzing beauty
and deft mentality; hybrid haven of
epic insight and mommy-I-want-that-one-
and-I'm-not-leaving-without-her
loveliness; "Unto us lowliest sometimes
sweep, descend, and of this curveship
lend a myth to god."

From Jess

She’s a little girl,
In her dreams
Filled with clouds and down
Of dandelions
Soft, to break her falls.

Safe, these dreams
They seep into her days
She might not see you
Passing by,
With eyes on
Something like heaven
Or high fashion,
Smooth and comfortable,
Unattainable.

Beauty lives in her.
Outside we see it,
But she forgets
Locked inside mirror fragments
Of sadness and regret

Reckless-hearted Ella
Driving fast without her top
Life is slow,
Until she smiles,
Until she sees a horizon
Perfect as the paintings in her head.

From PM

Click here to take a look at Madonna's rather animated new video for Get Together.

chocolate mouse frosting. indulge. dont. i couldn't possibly. i just cant.

if you want the damn cake
eat the damn cake.

this exactly is whats wrong with us today.

if you want to eat the cake, eat it. if you want to listen to old madonna do it. if you want to wear the color orange do so (appropriately).

if you want someone to like you for who you are, be yourself. don't fake your cup size, your hair color, your interests and ambitions.

stop

there are consequences for actions; recognize them.
if you act like you are confused in life, you will be.

just be.

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Well Played: Scarlett Johansson

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