thoughts

i remember your long, black woolen coat. the way it swirled around your legs and parted just slightly when you would lean your hand down to me. your dark eyes fringed with lashes and the smile, that curl of a grin that was so mysterious, that curl of black hair that would fall on your forward amid the slightly controlled waves. the glint that said you are everything and there is nothing but this. the smell of ocean on your neck, the way you couldn't take your eyes off of mine for a moment, not a moment, not a second would you break my gaze. the way we would walk past crowds of people eating, hand in hand, and they would stop and stare at us long after we would pass. how the women would point, the men nod, everyone saw us and thought we were the most "beautiful couple" "gorgeous" "amazing eyes" the attention that didn't even matter. how we kissed for 8 hours straight in the knickerbocker tangled in the sheets and how you laid your hand on my heart and felt me breathing, beating, long after you thought i was asleep. i remember what i wanted you to be and what i wanted to believe.

people do what they need to do
i have no regrets

but i still think of you.